Growing Older

Today was warped tour. My fifth one. Each year it gets less and less exciting until this year I actually hated it.

Am I growing up? If this is how growing up feels, boring and lonley, I dont want to grow up. I want to stay a teenager.

At the beggining of the month my boyfriend of four years proposed to me. I said yes. But I am too young. I want to be a teenager still. I am affraid of marriage and college. I am affraid I wont be able to enjoy concerts and movies any more like I used to. I am overwhelmed.... ugh